Post by shannonbutton on Jan 31, 2005 19:23:02 GMT -5
Throughout my life I have let myself fall to the arrogance and ignorance of others. Being teased in school for my size, trying to perfect myself for a man I used to date, trying to be all the things that I never was.
My journey to staighten out my life began in July 2003. I realized that I was in an abusive relationship, and I was doing things to myself that would have eventually ended my life. I was always afraid to leave him, afraid of what he might do, so I tried to find a reason to leave. The next month, August, I finally got the courage to leave. I moved back in with my family(home) and tried to restart. My ex wouldn't leave me alone. I started seeing this wonderful man in October 2003, despite all the problems with my ex.
I no longer speak nor see my ex, except when I walk to work or to the store. I am now engaged, and I have a son. My life is slowly beginning to piece together, though there are things that I would like to change.
It is all ready obvious that one of my goals is to lose weight and get fit. I want to be able to run in the park with my son, play outside with him, and who knows when I will have to chase him around the house to put his clothes back on him!
I also want to look and feel better not only for my fiance', but for myself. I would also like to quit smoking, one of those nasty habits that people wish they would have never picked up. I should have quit while I was pregnant with my son, but didn't because at the time I was too selfish to see what I was doing to him and myself. I have matured so much since then, giving almost every ounce of spare time to him, doing dishes with him in his swing in the kitchen, taking a shower with him in his bouncer seat in the bath room, spending less on things that I want, but don't need just to make sure he has everything that he needs. It's been a major adjustment, but I wouldn't trade it for the world. I would like to eat healthy, so that my son develops good eating habits, and realizes that McDonald's or Burger King is a special treat but not what you should eat all the time. Teach him that candy and chips are not good for you, eat a banana or apple instead. My son has become my major motivation!
I am slowly changing things. To start with, all though I am still a smoker
, I do not smoke in the apartment, keeping the air clean around my son. Smoking stinks, and can lead to all sorts of diseases. I don't want to be sitting in a hospital bed with emphysema while my son graduates, or gets married. I want to be by his side always, or as long as I can. We also plan on having other children. I need to set a good example for them. Also along with the anti smoking, I feel so much better when I don't smoke, and I am so much happier. I get so much more accomplished when I don't smoke because I can be inside and do what I need instead of being outside only thinking of more to do and how I don't think that I will get it done. In general, I have no reason not to quit, just minor excuses.
Those are the major changes that I am focusing on right now, the things that I would like to do or change the most. I believe that I can do it and so does my fiance. I will keep everyone posted once I get into a routine, because for right at the moment it is trying to get into one.
Have a wonderful day all and good luck!
My journey to staighten out my life began in July 2003. I realized that I was in an abusive relationship, and I was doing things to myself that would have eventually ended my life. I was always afraid to leave him, afraid of what he might do, so I tried to find a reason to leave. The next month, August, I finally got the courage to leave. I moved back in with my family(home) and tried to restart. My ex wouldn't leave me alone. I started seeing this wonderful man in October 2003, despite all the problems with my ex.
I no longer speak nor see my ex, except when I walk to work or to the store. I am now engaged, and I have a son. My life is slowly beginning to piece together, though there are things that I would like to change.
It is all ready obvious that one of my goals is to lose weight and get fit. I want to be able to run in the park with my son, play outside with him, and who knows when I will have to chase him around the house to put his clothes back on him!
I also want to look and feel better not only for my fiance', but for myself. I would also like to quit smoking, one of those nasty habits that people wish they would have never picked up. I should have quit while I was pregnant with my son, but didn't because at the time I was too selfish to see what I was doing to him and myself. I have matured so much since then, giving almost every ounce of spare time to him, doing dishes with him in his swing in the kitchen, taking a shower with him in his bouncer seat in the bath room, spending less on things that I want, but don't need just to make sure he has everything that he needs. It's been a major adjustment, but I wouldn't trade it for the world. I would like to eat healthy, so that my son develops good eating habits, and realizes that McDonald's or Burger King is a special treat but not what you should eat all the time. Teach him that candy and chips are not good for you, eat a banana or apple instead. My son has become my major motivation!I am slowly changing things. To start with, all though I am still a smoker
, I do not smoke in the apartment, keeping the air clean around my son. Smoking stinks, and can lead to all sorts of diseases. I don't want to be sitting in a hospital bed with emphysema while my son graduates, or gets married. I want to be by his side always, or as long as I can. We also plan on having other children. I need to set a good example for them. Also along with the anti smoking, I feel so much better when I don't smoke, and I am so much happier. I get so much more accomplished when I don't smoke because I can be inside and do what I need instead of being outside only thinking of more to do and how I don't think that I will get it done. In general, I have no reason not to quit, just minor excuses.Those are the major changes that I am focusing on right now, the things that I would like to do or change the most. I believe that I can do it and so does my fiance. I will keep everyone posted once I get into a routine, because for right at the moment it is trying to get into one.
Have a wonderful day all and good luck!
